Holy Jesus, I haven't updated in...(looks at calender) a long time...

So uh, hey...

What's been going on?

Totally not dead or anything...

Been working a lot. Seriously, I've been working extra hours and even had to come in on Fridays and Saturdays. We've been working on this project for 3 weeks now. This, thank God, is our last week since the event is on Monday and Tuesday.

Something good has happened though; if you've talked to me in chat, you'd know how suck-tastic my laptop was. I would randomly get a "White Screen of Death", the screen was on the verge of dying and the battery was dead and had to stay plugged in constantly. However, the adapter didn't fit in all the way into the laptop so if moved the wrong way, the plug would come out and the laptop would turn off. And did I mention that it was loud as hell? I remember a year back, I turned on my laptop in class and some chick thought it was a fan. That's fuckin' embarrassing. Also, it was slow. Well, I gots me a new shiny desu laptop last Saturday. And holy Hell, did I need it. Now I don't have to worry about simply moving and having the cord fall out and turning off the laptop. Or FireFox taking up 80% of my memory. Knowing me, I'll post a screenshot of my desktop soon.

What should I do with my old laptop? My mom says that I should keep it for backup. Maybe. I can't sell it. No one wants a White Screen of Death laptop. Plus, I think the screen needs to be replaced or something. If the screen wasn't white, the screen looked like a static on a tv. I'm going to take special care of this new one. Never again.

This isn't exactly news, but I just beat Brutal Legend...as the journal title suggests. Though still tired from getting off of work, I would pop it in and play it before going to bed. (I just got it last week, though I pre-ordered it). And oddly, I want to play my guitar...

I still haven't drawn a picture in ages. I feel bad.

I hate Flash class. I just do. Having a class Fridays from 6pm to 9:40 in a cold room isn't fun.

But honestly, nothing's been going on with me. Just work and games, as always. Sorry I haven't left any comments lately.

I've been reading a lot of journals, and it seems everyone is preparing to go back to is already starting school. Good luck with your school year, guys! I still have till the 28th to go back. This will be my last year in college. Then after that? I will be set lose to the world to steal your babies be a bum. But a week before then, I will also go back to work. Yay for making money. Nay for...having a long year. I also have to figure out how to exactly get out into the work field. It's pretty clear that American jobs are scarce at the moment. It's like, I know what I want to do, but I don't know how to get there. ;_; I have to admit, though: I'm just tired of everything and everyone (not you guys). I think last night after talking to my mom, I finally realized, "I'm so sick of everyone." Being in college for the past few years, I'm tired of the same hallways, I'm tired of the Financial Aid office always messing up my...financial aid, and I'm tired of not being ambitious and going out into the world. And I'm tried of my closet-racist family members, their hypocritical ways, and their total disregard for anyone's feelings. And I need a car, I need a house (of my own), and I need to get out of this lame town. >:U

Dammit, I ranted.

And again, being the procrastinator I am, I'm not drawing. I was drawing, then I thought to myself, "Is this how I want to color it?" Ugh. I wish that I could just pick a style and stick with it. I hate being a flip flopper...AND STREET FIGHTER 4 IS NOT HELPING. STOP BEING SO ADDICTIVE. Aw damn, since school and work are around the corner, I won't even have enough time to draw. SHITSHITSHITSHITSHITSHIT

A new beginning calls for a new avatar. Byebye, Sackgirl. (Sorry, no Clank this time). Something's telling me...it will be Street Fighter related. Exactly what I need; more Street Fighter right now

On a random/retarded note, I had a weird Ratchet and Clank related dream last night. After waking up, I thought to myself, "Since when did I have such weird video game dreams?". Then after going back to sleep, I guess my mind decided to fucking troll my ass, giving me a dream where I was actually part of some IRL "multi-player" Bioshock action, a NSFW Prince of Persia dream (the 2008 version)(lolwut) and a dream where I yelled at my 9 year old cousin for coming into my room going, "PATA PATA PATAPON". Wtf. Just wtf.

<--My expression after waking up. What the fuck, head. It's like my mind did that on fucking purpose. The funny thing is that there wasn't even a Street Fighter dream in sight (though people do forget dreams over the night). But still: what. The fuck. I guess this is what having pancakes for a late night snack does to you. Still: what the fuck. Never again.

Anyway, here's a chat log from a few months back:

<kid-izzy> hey ele
<elegentmess> yes oh great one
<kid-izzy> google "prolapse"
<elegentmess> will I need mindsoap
<Bibi15> yes
<kid-izzy> yes
<kid-izzy> rofl
<Bibi15> I thought for a second you were going to ask her about the furry/anthro thing XD
<kid-izzy> LOL
<kid-izzy> OH YEAH
<kid-izzy> CHESNEY
<kid-izzy> CHESNEY
<Bibi15> OH YEAH CHESNEY'S HERE
<kid-izzy> I NEED TO ASK YOU SOMETHING
<elegentmess> OMG WHy
<kid-izzy> D:
<elegentmess> WHY
<kid-izzy> ROFL
<elegentmess> I CLICKED ON IMAGES
<elegentmess> WHY
<kid-izzy> you looked ROFL
<elegentmess> WHY
<elegentmess> OMG THE IMAGES
<elegentmess> ARGH
<elegentmess> *vomit*
<kid-izzy> LOOOOOOOOL
<Bibi15> XD

Ok, I'm going to go play some Street Fi---SONOFABITCH.

<kid-izzy> I do like playing as girls in games
<Bibi15> seems like there's at least a few more game makers who have more playable female characters
<kid-izzy> especially when theyre not dressed as whore
<kid-izzy> s*
<Bibi15> yes, exactly DX
<kid-izzy> In God of War II, you can change your look to look like Athena
<kid-izzy> it was funny playing as her since she still had the main character's deep man voice
<Bibi15> ...ew XD
<kid-izzy> LOL
<Bibi15> Tranny Athena, lovely
<kid-izzy> LOL
<kid-izzy> Oh God...
<Bibi15> of all the places you can cut back on budget, voices should not be one of them
<kid-izzy> then there was a part where you could have sex with these 2 ladies....
<Bibi15> ...oh god
<kid-izzy> and I was still Athena...
<Bibi15> oh. dear.
<kid-izzy> lol
<Bibi15> I remember they showed a clip of that on some show on G4
<kid-izzy> yeah, they could have did a special voice work for the Athena skin
<kid-izzy> Xplay?
<kid-izzy> of the sex scene?
<Bibi15> not Xplay
<kid-izzy> hmmm
<Bibi15> it was some special they did on sex in video games, after that scandal with GTA
<kid-izzy> that must have been Xplay
<kid-izzy> because they had a special on sex and violence in games
<Bibi15> might've been, then
<kid-izzy> lol
<kid-izzy> though it is a fairly old episode
<kid-izzy> so the details are blurry
<Bibi15> I just remember having to change the channel whenever one of my parents would come downstairs XD
<kid-izzy> ...LOL
<Bibi15> unless it was on commercial, then I would keep it
<Bibi15> but they did mention God of War in there
<kid-izzy> yeah that game is pretty violent
<kid-izzy> probably the most violent game I own
<Bibi15> one of the...commentators, I guess, did make fun of the fact the most you get out of the sex scene is moaning and a breaking vase XD
<kid-izzy> lol that's true
<Bibi15> or something, it was a while ago XD
<kid-izzy> because when the scene starts, the camera pans away to a vase or something
<kid-izzy> then you have to press te buttons in order to "do good"
<kid-izzy> the*
<Bibi15> LOL XD
<kid-izzy> Kratos should stop screwing whores anyway
<kid-izzy> he screwed whores in every game so far
<kid-izzy> once per game, I mean
<Bibi15> yeah, that...can't be healthy
<kid-izzy> lol
<kid-izzy> Oh god...
<kid-izzy> then the new one is coming out in 2010
<kid-izzy> High Def screwing
<Bibi15> ...wow
<kid-izzy> XD
<kid-izzy> with HIGH DEF VASES
<Bibi15> LOL
<kid-izzy> what's hilarious is that...right after Kratos is done
<kid-izzy> his clothes are still on
<kid-izzy> AND
<kid-izzy> it takes him like, 30 seconds to do this
<Bibi15> LOL
<Bibi15> XD
<kid-izzy> So I wouldn't brag about that XD
<kid-izzy> Kratos is a dick anyway
<Bibi15> one day the girls he screws are going to tell everyone that he only lasts 30 seconds
<kid-izzy> LOL
<Bibi15> BYE BYE AWKWARD MOANING+VASE
<kid-izzy> That would be hilarious
<Bibi15> or he's going to get AIDS/crabs/whatever STDs existed at that time
<kid-izzy> LOL
<kid-izzy> He'll get a fire crotch
<Bibi15> keep losing health, or however that works in the game
<kid-izzy> LOL
<kid-izzy> His godly powers will decrease probably
<kid-izzy> thanks to VD
<Bibi15> "'Grats, you had another 30 second orgy with 2 girls. Enjoy your AIDS."
<kid-izzy> ...
<kid-izzy> omg
<kid-izzy> I would Lol if that happened
<Bibi15> I...wonder if parents would complain about that, actually
<kid-izzy> XD
<kid-izzy> well kids shouldnt be buying their kids an M rated game
<kid-izzy> parents shouldnt*
<Bibi15> true
<Bibi15> if they bought it, they can't complain
<kid-izzy> really
<Bibi15> or they should, at least, research it
<kid-izzy> I hate parents who do that
<kid-izzy> "oh I'm going to buy my kid God of War"
<kid-izzy> "because rated M means FAMILY FUN"
<kid-izzy> when it says RIGHT ON THE BACK: THIS GAMES CONTAINS FUCKING SEX AND GORE
<Bibi15> LOL XD
<kid-izzy> "DO NOT BUY YOUR KID THIS GAME"
<kid-izzy> "UNLESS YOURE A BAD PARENT, THEN SURE GO HAEAD"
<kid-izzy> AHEAD"
<Bibi15> same thing at movies, too
<kid-izzy> oh my god, yes
<Bibi15> people that bring little kids to PG-13 movies piss me off so bad
<kid-izzy> oh god
<Bibi15> because once that hellspawn starts screeching I want to slap the parents
<kid-izzy> then they complain when their kids reenacts the shit from the movie
<Bibi15> If your kid has a hard time seperating fantasy from reality, clearly you need to discuss the difference with them

I have quite a few messages in my inbox, so if I haven't replied to you, then I apologize. I will get to them when I can

I will not lurk on the ^devart page anymore. I'm tired and ashamed of some people trolling and causing unnecessary dArama for fun. I'll report on my own time. More art from me, hopefully

<sub>EDIT: I'd like to clarify some things about this particular decision. I love dA. I log in each day to interact, post art (rarely), and to lurk (reporting art, getting a laugh, etc.). I still stand by my decision to not lurk the devart page. I will still lurk around dA, yes, but just not commenting on that page. lol srs bsns.

I'm just upset at some people who feel that when something isn't what it seems, they blow it out of proportion. Worse yet is that when given the opportunity to hear from a different point of view, they completely ignore it and stand by their mindset. That's called, 'close-mindedness'. And that's exactly how some people are; close minded. When you go, "TL;DR" at the opportunity of someone trying to clear things up or to ease the troubled minds of the community, then you really aren't any better than what you pretend to be. Don't be a dick. If it's TL;DR, then you shouldn't bother commenting in the first place.

I've come across members who have harassed others, trolled, and even evaded but when something doesn't go their way, they want to recite the rules? wtf. How hypocritical can you be? I admit, I goofed around at one point. I never "trolled", but I could see how some of my comments could be taken as such. I mean, if someone commented, "" on your badly drawn mouse yaoi (I shit you not), I would probably get mad at that, too . And I've gotten myself into some dArama from time to time but it was unintentional. Plus I didn't "enforce" it like some. But I've never harassed or threatened someone. I never evaded. This account has been clean since I registered back in 2006 2004. And I plan to keep it that way, though we can all agree that I'm not pure. So I won't act as such. Just staying away from lurker dArama.

I love you, the true devart lurkers. I love dA. I love my friends. I love, er, drawing. I love laughing. I love chatting. I love helping the community. I love laughing at tard journals. But I don't like dArama. I don't like hypocrites. I don't like it when people blow things out of proportion. I don't like it when people are so caught up in their own ego that they ignore whatever anyone says. If you want to help dA, then you have to start by helping yourself and others. But if you have the mindset that, 'no one else cares about the site, why should I?', then do something about it. Try to get people to care. Or can just not log in, anymore, I guess. :/

So I will try to regain my faith and not associate with dArama llamas (holy Jesus, never thought I'd use that term). If some don't want to talk to me anymore because I don't share your views, then that's fine. I won't be mad at you. I've had people not talk to me because I stopped drawing their favorite fandom. I'm use to it. I will continue to talk to my friends and I will continue to report what I see is wrong. AND I NEED TO UPLOAD SOME DAMN ART OMG. But I will not associate myself with anymore lurker dArama. I already deal with it IRL (drama, not lurker drama), and I don't need anymore.

"Why should I care about the community if no one else does?": Because I'm not a robot. Well, there was that one time, but that doesn't count</sub>

Also, wtf. My laptop is the worse ever. It's loud, clunky, and breaking apart. No, seriously. I have buttons falling off. And to top that, the screen has recently decided to "go white" on me. This has been happening for about...3 weeks now? Ugh. I would love to get a new laptop now, but it's best for me to wait when 1) I have money (of course) and 2) when 7 comes out. Yes, I want 7. But that's in October. I also won't take my laptop to classes anymore since it's too loud and embarrassing. I'll just use it for work...which is at school...I can't wait till I get some money. I'd like to sell art, but how?

/wrist /wrist

Also, my friend Ariell has joined dA (this actually her...34230948023th account). Drop by and say hello. And for the love of God, give her a critique. She likes critiques. And be sure to inform her on what MPREG is. No seriously. She doesn't know. And be sure to explain it to her in the most lulziest, vile way possible (without breaking the rules of course )

And now, in order to mindfuck you all, I shall link to this piece of Japanese French horror in the form of a commercial.

See that? That's your sanity getting fucked up the ass. Sweet dreams.

Fuck you, Thanks France.